ben In the Future

It's starting to sink in. A lot. Or at least a lot more than it has before. I'm looking around me and continually realizing that I'm not going to see all of this (what I've known since I was two) for many, many years. Oh boy...I can't believe this! (That wasn't an excited exclamation point, that was a frustrated/surprised/manyotheremotions one)

I can't believe this. I don't see myself as a very emotional person. I can seem to steel myself to something I don't like, or make fun of it in my mind. But this one is sending me through the ringer. I'm not entirely sure how to react; I was almost angry all day! I know! Not me? But I was. Here, check this out.

Hi Ben two and half months from now,

How's college? How was your summer? Everything you expected? Well, I'm sitting here in your old room, looking around at the clothes cluttering you old bed. I actually just got back from taking cap and gown pictures at the Deportiva. Remember the Deportiva? Your not gonna see it for a long time, but I was there today. Well, I hope your enjoying yourself. See you today!

Look at that! My whole life is about to change, but am I ready? I have to go work this summer. I have to pay rent, cook food and "live on my own." Then! I move again! To NYC...In comes some excitement but also even more foreboding. Can I do that?

This is my mood-